MY APOLOGY

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Maureen K Clifford
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MY APOLOGY

Post by Maureen K Clifford » Sun Nov 17, 2024 2:18 pm

Thank you to Terry and Shelley for stepping up and keeping this going for me and my apology - heartfelt but late, for my absence without explanation from the site. Very rude of me, unforgivable but I am sorry to say folks that I dropped my bundle and just wasn't coping - getting out of bed each day was a struggle and that and keeping the ARP page running was about all I was managing.
However I am feeling a lot better now and moving on and so, if you guys wish me to continue, come December, I will ... or if you prefer I hand the reins to someone else I am fine with that too.

I had a number of setbacks through the last few months and they came hard and fast. The loss of my only son was the hardest - completely unexpected and out of the blue - 5 weeks from when he found a small lump, up anchored and headed back to Brisbane from the Keppels to see a specialist, who immediately organized hospitalization to have surgery to remove it. Dave was discharged twice from hospital despite his protests that he felt to unwell to leave, and both times a subsequent collapse within minutes of exiting the hospital saw him readmitted. Just 3.5 hours after I last spoke to him via Skype he was found dead - and as he was not being monitored at all no one knew until the nursing staff did their rounds at midnight. There was then the concern for my DIL who had to sell the boat they had lived on for over a decade, find new accommodation for herself and start to rebuild her life. Thankfully she is a strong woman and is doing just that.

A few months after this I lost my Staffy Maddison - she died in my arms very quickly after collapsing in the back garden. I had her less than 2 years and subsequently found out she was riddled with cancer which we were treating. she had a growth on her spleen which was inoperable. Her spleen had ruptured and she bled out in minutes. It was made more distressing by the fact that I couldn't lift her to bring her inside and it was a very cold night - there was no one available at the village to help and I had to call on my brother to help me to carry her inside.

Then both my younger sibling also became ill - my sister has Alzheimers with asphasia and can now barely speak and can't/wont communicate with us anymore. She no longer knows us in our opinion, as there is no interaction from her at all. to me or to her own family. It is very sad and difficult to come to grips with. If anyone was going to suffer from that she was the last person we would have thought of.

Then to add insult to injury and the straw that broke the camels back was my planning to adopt another staffy, for whom I ticked every box with the rescue organization, after a long wait and initial refusal, was phoned to see if I would still take her and to organize a meet and greet - only to then have my hopes completely dashed by being told I was not considered a good match for her. So we have a senior woman, with experience of owning 15 various breeds of dogs including a pit bull and another Staffy over a 50+ year period, wanting to adopt a senior dog and being told that she was not suitable for me -r I was not suitable for her. Which part of my application was unsuitable I don't know as they refused to answer that question and despite me asking numerous times, along with support from friends etc they banned me from their page.

So I hope you can all understand why my head has not been in a good space and why my absence was so sudden :(

But on we go - so I am off now to write something to the set of prompts that Shelley has put up and we'll see what happens next.
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Re: MY APOLOGY

Post by Terry » Sun Nov 17, 2024 3:32 pm

Hi Maureen

I'm sure we will all welcome you back with open arms, this site doesn't seem the same without you.

I think we all had an inkling of some of the stress you were going through and sensed you needed a bit time for yourself for a while.
After reading your note, I now realize just how difficult a time you actually have had.

There's certainly no need to apologize Maureen, we're just pleased to see you back again and hope the next twelve months treat you a darn side better than the last one did.

Regards

Terry

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Re: MY APOLOGY

Post by Maureen K Clifford » Sun Nov 17, 2024 3:49 pm

Thank you Terry - your kind words mean more that you will ever know.:)
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Re: MY APOLOGY

Post by Ron » Tue Nov 19, 2024 3:18 pm

Hi Maureen,
You certainly have been through the mill of late, and I concur with all that Terry has said.
In particular that there is no need for you to apologize, your efforts on here over the years are greatly appreciated!
Cheers
Ron.

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Re: MY APOLOGY

Post by Catherine Lee » Tue Nov 19, 2024 4:52 pm

Ah Maureen, it has certainly been an "Annus Horribilis" for you in more ways than one. We all totally understand - and did, as Terry said, have an inkling of your need for a break, but to see it written down like this really brings home strongly the terrible grief and stress you have been suffering.... I know there is nothing we can really say, except that we are indeed very glad to be welcoming you back, and please know that your friends on the Forum are always here for you... Sending hugs xoxo

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Re: MY APOLOGY

Post by alongtimegone » Wed Nov 27, 2024 12:30 pm

Hi Maureen I've been a bit lazy and not communicated with the forum lately and hadn't even realized you were off line. After reading your apology which by the way was totally not necessary I can understand. Very upsetting to read of your personal trials over the last few months. Any wonder that the forum was out of mind. I read that you are feeling better but take care. The road to really finding your way back to a well being of body and soul can be a difficult journey.
Wazza

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Re: MY APOLOGY

Post by Shelley Hansen » Sun Dec 01, 2024 8:41 pm

A hearty welcome back, Maureen.

You have been dealing with so much and I'm sure we all understand that sometimes things just can't go on "as normal". I certainly found that earlier this year with Rod's life-threatening heart attack and open heart surgery.

I'm sure we are all happy to have you here as and when you feel up to it.

Take care
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